My Struggles With My Intellectual Autobiography
As I write WP3, I have noticed that I struggle to recognize and express the ideas that make up my intellectual identity, especially with a vague prompt like this. I wanted to write a Medium post in order to talk about the difficulties I have had so far with this project, in order to create a more specific question for me to answer within my essay.
Thanks to the writing I have done in this class, I have realized that I greatly prefer writing about and interacting with concrete information over intangible ideas. This is partially because until this class, I seldom have had to write extensively about myself. Throughout high school, I rarely was allowed to use the word I in any essays across many subjects, which separated myself from the ideas I discussed. I didn’t have to think about the ideas’ relation to my own identity, so I became accustomed to writing from a simple, objective point of view. I had to write in a way that proved I knew information, as opposed to what I actually thought about the material. Because I never had to give my opinion, I never reflected and formed an opinion in the first place. So, I have started to learn about my own perceptions of the world and my inward desires in addition to the process of good writing throughout this semester.
Still, I do really enjoy writing about information over ideas, because I understand topics better when they are more finite and explicit. I struggle to wrap my head around ambiguous, uncertain topics that are open to interpretation, which likely relates to how I have hardly had to think about different perspectives throughout my intellectual journey. One example of this concept is that I engage much better with simple math and statistics that relate to the world around me, instead of calculus problems with variables that represent imprecision and theory.
The central idea that I have tried to explain over the first two writing projects is why I want to go into sports journalism. As I look back on WP1 and WP2, I explained how different experiences with sports and exposures to media have made me the person I am today. I had a very concrete, fact-based approach to exploring my identity, because that’s the style of writing that I am comfortable with; furthermore, I will mostly be writing in this outwardly analytical manner in my desired career. However, I haven’t been able to fully explain why I identify with sports better than anything else. I know that I prefer sports over politics, for example, but I struggle to explicitly state my reasoning for that opinion.
I think that I need to learn to become more subjective in the way I analyze myself in WP3, because the objective approach that I have previously taken can only go so far. I have written about my identity in a detached, descriptive way instead of the personal, autobiographical point of view that only I possess. Ironically, I guess I want to write subjectively about how I enjoy writing objectively, which is a weird, challenging juxtaposition.